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Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

FrostbiteNumbness
I can’t feel my toes and at first I think
It’s just my toes.
I can cover them up.
I can warm them.

It spreads, like fire,
Like ice.
I glance away for a second, it seems, and my feet are cold
Pat –pat
That’s funny, I didn’t feel that
Maybe I’ll cover them up too
I’ll warm them up.

I’ll take a nap
Maybe a short rest will make it all better, warm them
Up…
What’s that? How long has it been?
My legs… are you still mine..
Why has my breath left me, short?
Has everything but deserted me?

What about you, are you still here?
Are you still with me?
Hello?
And before I can say goodbye, I think my thoughts are leaving me too –

Sleeping Beautyshe’s in love with a character who
never existed but in the labyrinth of her head:
a patchwork composition of beautiful, lengthy words
she’d heard in her catatonic state; coma living
day in and day out, reliant on the salvation
of a man made of foreign wishing
and imperfection and necessity – an ignorance
of the less than ideal perception of self she’d
come to fear, absention stained romantic to the point
where daydreams were a standard for survival

(real living is for the purposeful of heart,
he loves her in her sleep)

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

Happily AloneHonesty,
She does not have,
Personalities,
She has many of them.

A million shields,
a million personalities,
She's always changing,
to fit every person around her.

If one were to ask why,
she would answer with,
I will never reveal my weaknesses,
because she's evil.

She hates everyone,
stupider than her is barely tolerable,
smarter than her is too scary,
She hates it all.

She leaves the world behind,
To one she has dreamt of,
No color,
nobody else.

Then,
she will smile,
why,
because she is truly happy alone.

She is not evil,
She does not hate you,
She is not dishonest,
She simply wants to be alone.

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

PerfectEver had the feeling where you can't stop looking at a picture?
Your gorgeous face makes me smile
Go weak at the knees
Makes me giggle like a little girl

Those morning texts
All day conversations
Random silly things like that
Make me smile

I see the led light flash the colours I've set for when I get a message from you
My heart flutters
My cheeks flush
I go deaf to the world when I'm reading a message from you

If your down
I'm always there for you
I know you don't want to worry me
I know you want me to smile
But I'm always here for you
No matter how you feel
I'd prefer to help
Than for you to be down

Your gorgeous eyes
Are mesmerising
You

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Resurrected poem 2Insanity grips me
As I sit in this room
Nothing but mirrors
That say my doom
I rock back in forth
Losing my mind
Death will come
In a matter of time
I feel myself slipping
Fading away
I forget time
No such thing as day
I'm dying here
Slipping from grace
I'm going crazy here
Blood on the wall's traced
My mind is screaming
Yelling at me
Saying how did this happen
This death creed
I can't answer now
For I'm already gone
I'm so far away
My strength is drawn

Resurrected poem 1Brawling love
Loving hate
in the darkness death awaits
the night has come to split the light
and devour those who shake in fright
Do not hide, for you can't
death will come
in a carnage rant
Killing all who get in the way
sending all to their grave
Hateful love
loving beast
Monsters waiting for their feast
only in the darkest hours
do they come tall as towers
so evil and vile so wicked and cruel
killing everyone
in a single duel
endless blood
and forever nights
all shall perish at the end of light

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Through colored glass

by ~AuriZena, Dec 2, 2011, 1:42:11 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Through colored glass
the blazing sun
I see you
staring
I see your eyes
how sad they are
about that we are
apart
I see you speak
walking to
the colored glass
but no sound comes
I cannot read
your lips
I frown
Trying to decipher the motions
but none makes sense
You press to the glass
I can tell you are speaking
aloud
the way your chest slowly fades
and puffs up again
but I hear none
through colored glass
tears burn my eyes
as I watch
unable to hear your voice
you bang on the glass
your mouth opening wider
as you yell
but no sound is heard
Through colored glass
I put my hands
to the glass
my nose
my head
and the rest of me

I need a hug
a kiss
warmth
I can feel the glass buzz
as it's beaten
I see desperation
in your eyes
tinted to orange
Through colored glass
Tears roll down my cheeks
my neck
to my shirt
but you can't comfort me
Through colored glass
I close my eyes
but I still see orange
I feel you there
warmth seeping though
but I only cry more
I know you cant get closer
I feel you slipping
the sun setting
through colored glass
I'm washed in orange
red
blue
purple
green
so many more
The glass shudders
under your beating
wild fist
I look up

In you eyes
determination
(Bang)
Willpower
(clatter)
strength
(bam)
love
(crash)
the glass shatters
in a waterfall
of colors
and there you stand
smiling
your arms
open
left hand
bloody
but okay
as you walk to me
through shattered glass
your arms
encircle me
your lips
caress mine
chapped
but okay
I calm
tears slowly drying
smiling as
I breathe easy
then wake
Alone on the flood
under a sheet
of shattered
colored
glass

Through colored glassby ~AuriZena

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

yeah I'm not entirely sure why I had the inspiriation for this
it was three friggen pages long X3 i wrote it during class....I like how it turned out

PLEASE COMMENT!

!Rex-1998 Dec 2, 2011

I like 0.0

~AuriZena Dec 2, 2011 Hobbyist Digital Artist

YAYAYAY glad you do! x3

!Rex-1998 Dec 2, 2011

~Lorunay Dec 2, 2011 Hobbyist General Artist

Nyah amazing what boredom does XD

!Rex-1998 Dec 2, 2011

Ikr x3

~Lorunay Dec 2, 2011 Hobbyist General Artist

This is kinda based on that dream I told u about xd

!Rex-1998 Dec 2, 2011

Ah.. Wow x3
I cant write poetry >.< it comes out sounding like sh!t

~Lorunay Dec 2, 2011 Hobbyist General Artist

It doesn't have to rhyme XD it can be like this one :3

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~justsomenut626 Dec 2, 2011 Hobbyist Writer

... DAAAAAAAMN!

And HELLO!

~AuriZena Dec 2, 2011 Hobbyist Digital Artist

XD hai X3 and yeah i got kinda carried away in world Geography clas XD

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